Thursday, February 16, 2006
--I'm sorry.
I noticed i can't do anything right.
The truth was told.
The damage was inflicted..
The <3 was hurt.
I'm so insensitive.
Although some ppl once guessed it and told me and i secretly tot: 'maybe'
Plus all the years in a girls' school din help at all.
I'm actually a little scared of the opposite gender.
I'll get really nervous if a guy come close to me.
Last time I don't dare to look into their eyes when i talk to them.
Now i m probably still liddet.
Ok i m still liddet.
Don't ever think the failure is due to you.
It's me.
I can't really tink of my future.
I don't want to tink of my future.
I'm only 16.
16++.
But somehow i feel old.
But even more i feel young.
Immature.
When will i grow out of this?
I really want to know.
I hope you won't blame me.
I don't want myself to regret.
I don't want both of us to regret.
Because someday you'll discover all the flaws in me.
Not good in communication.
Shy.
Too ambitious.
Wild.
Clumsy.
Slow.
My contradicting personalities.
I hope we can b frens just like in the past.
When i told you my troubles, then you would find ways to cheer me up.
That's probably v selfish of me.
I noe from now you'll hate me.
But i want you to noe dat you'll always have an important space in my heart.
Just not that
'special' space for
HIM.
Perhaps when i finally grow up, then i'll realise who's the other person at the other end of the world, waiting for me patiently. My
Destinated 1.
And at that time, i hope it'll b you.--
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
3:44 PM
